Sierra November India Papa Echo Romeo

Well, i've been doing my practicles for the past month, and altough it may be tiring, at least i'm learning something. Actually i'm learning a lot, especially in the kitchen. Its really sad that i can't eat what i've cooked. You really don't know what it tastes like until after service is over with. Even then, if there in't any left then, well, Schade!
I find working almost translike. You just start doing work, step after step, contingency after contingency, sometimes it feels almost clockwork, even if it's not exactly going as planned. But at the end of the day, when you're done, you think to yourself, "wow! i did all that!". It might not even be a lot of work or a perfect job, but there you go, its been done. I feel, to a point, at ease when i work, it just causes one to forget about all other woes and troubles whilst doing the work at hand. Also, at the end of the day, i have a sense of gratification, knowing i gave my job my all.
Still, i find it all a bit of a hassle. The responsibilities is the cloud to the silver lining. Its heavy, its a burden and its very real. The result of not fulfilling it - dissapointment, and that is something i can't live with. Thank god the RM's alternate every week.
Something Ali said just now struck me as what was giving me the slight case of the blues. Now that the class is split up into three groups, where we work in three different areas, we hardly ever meet up and do what we used to do last semester. Lunch is usually non-existant. And if it is, it's either in small groups or just two people.
Nothing is what it used to be, hopefully it will get better. If this is a forecast of what work is going to be like for me, then i say its going to be a very sad life. hell, that is IF we have a life.

Und bis bald - Nim